Dear Diary,
If this Summer goes on like this - the heavy downpours, cold hearts and weak health, then indeed, Cruel Summer it is.
Yes, for a hot season there sure are too many days that rain graces earth. To the extent that rivers were created on normal streets in town. Which also resulted in vehicles breaking down and road accidents.
And I am down with a rather nasty cough. Hard not to fall sick with schedules as such. I am not complaining - everybody falls sick. My immunity is rather strong compared to many others. Thank you, Vitamins.
I know. My usual updates should be on a monthly basis. But this month I just have more to write about. I feel worse than I have in months... but I find it hard to talk to anyone at all. Bear with me and the rants - this shall blow over like dust in the wind.
Hit an incentive trip but am pondering if I should go ahead with it, or did I just force myself to do it to satiate those who want this to matter. Well, but nonetheless it is still good news. On a more negative note though, I lost a deal that could have made a huge difference. That was a blow - and I felt despondent that I could not even secure this case although it was by way of referral. Part of the fault lay with me... but the key players refused to weigh down on the stakes even though I offered to cut a hefty chunk of my commission. This is very frustrating.
I dont like to talk about my relationship but I dont know if status quo is a good idea after all. I didnt even know that the distance between us have grown to such an extent... too much... fallen leaves in the still waters forming barriers. Four years. Would it rise from the ashes and kiss the sun, someday? Or dive headlong into the dark ocean bed and sleep forever? I wish I had an answer.
I changed my hairdo. From long (waist-length), straight, dark and smooth, it is now layered, short (shoulder length) and red. I kind of love the new look - I just wish the color would stay.
Caught a movie alone. Love my new one-meal-a-day diet. With the new hairdo I need a more angular facial structure, therefore a diet is required. Though, am going for a champagne-brunch this Sunday.
Human beings envy constantly. We envy those who appear to be very much in love. We envy those who stay in luxurious mansions and live the high life. We envy the supernaturals, for the seemingly perfect, glamorous and worry-free life. But do we know the sacrifices they make to attain what we envy? Are we able to see the darker side of these pseudo-perfect lives? Do we even know that they may in turn envy a lifestyle simpler, happier and perhaps, contains more warmth?
I dont know. But I guess all of us are entitled to our preferred modes of escapism.
I need mine, definitely.
Escapism...
