Tampering with December

Dear Diary,

Happy Solstice today! A day where we celebrate surviving mid-winter, celebrate the return of the God of Light, and reunion of family members as we feast together, on nice food and the traditional glutinuous rice balls.

This month, lots are happening or have happened, and it is all good, all good.

No, this is not a closure post - I will be working on one soon, coming end December 2013.

Let's start with the top and slowly work things down, shall we?

I amended certain stuffs...  doors to be opened, doors to be closed, patchworks needed.

Including the decision to leave a job I totally held disdain for - in terms of certain factors. Nothing to be discussed in details here, in case some people reading it may think me ungrateful. I will be with a good company, a rather huge Japanese firm soon.

A week's break was well-spent (in lieu of a planned overseas trip) - with daytime shopping, lunches and teas with friends, museum visits, spas, business ventures discussions at friends' cafes and dinners. Fun, yes, nothing that I love better than being able to chill out in the afternoons where the malls are less crowded.

 

A Korean-style checkered half-sleeved dress

 

A short flare dress with laces at front (reminding me of my favourite blouse long ago)

and lacey long sleeves

 

An A-line dress with lovely sequined beads at shoulder and neck

Black peep-toes with silver heels - I seldom if never post about shoes, but have to post this

because have been searching for at least two years, but other brands never had my

size! I finally managed to have a pair now. Should I get another?

 

 After a period of having almost zero interest in clothes (yes, it was a huge surprise given that I am obsessed with dresses shopping usually - perhaps it was the last job that killed my interest to bother dressing up very nicely?) - I finally regained my clothes appetite again.  I do not know if this is a good or bad thing actually.

Then I have been working on some sidelines stuff and the New Blog as well - the latter serving more as a personal journal besides the Facebook albums, which do not say much. It consists not just of photos and reviews, but also thoughts and other human-interest stories.

Next, birthday celebrations - gifting, dinners etc. And a baby shower attended.

Then Winter Solstice celebration - details here http://thearcticstar.blogspot.sg/2013/12/winter-solstice.html.

Christmas shopping of course-  been prancing around malls shopping for ideal gifts for people who matter to me, shopping for Christmassy food and snacks, Christmassy outfits and gifts for colleagues (mass shopping). It is always exciting, though may be frustrating to jostle with the crowds, but the music and atmosphere is charged up with happy festivity. More details here: http://thearcticstar.blogspot.sg/2013/12/the-annual-christmas-shopping-adventure.html

The catching up with good friends over meals and gift exchange is always good - many groups of different friends, many different meetups. But all is good and happy. I cherish every one of these meetups. Regrettably, am unable to organize dinners for at least three other groups this Christmas, since everything was arranged rather last minute. Never mind, will do it early next year.  I was thinking of throwing a Christmas party and inviting friends to come have fun, feast and just hang out.

Am looking forward to Christmas next week. Think lovely lights, good food, soothing carols, Christmas performances, parties, more shopping, enchanting Christmas cards and gifts!

For now, gotta rush. Hasta la vista darlings, Merry Christmas and Happy Yuletide in advance!

November's Whisper

Dear Diary,

November has went around for 11 months and has returned to haunt us now. 

Last November had been a cold, bitter one in which le père bade us farewell and embarked on another journey of his own. I did not know how I was going to get through it all, and the loss itself felt eternal. I did not know when I would stop crying, stop missing him - I still feel the pain at the regrets, still feel the pain at not having him around, wishing I had done more for him / with him, and most of all, forgiven him. A year has passed, and while the pain does not taunt me this way anymore, I never stopped wishing he were still around... Love you, mon père.

So I was working on my business presentation slides and preparing myself for some Q&A questions. I passed up on the previous round of presentation as I had not been prepared for the Q&A. With the preparation now, I should be more adept at handling the queries from the potential investors. As suggested, too, I might look into foreign investors instead. The research on styles and fabrics remind me of my love for the fashion industry and how I had wanted to be a fashion designer when I was younger, creating the most fabulous dresses and outfits that no one else came up with...

Am planning for a trip next year to go Canada to visit the Bestie and friends. It was *Fion's wedding last month and I flew to Bali to attend it. What a beautiful wedding, and I enjoyed making new friends and loved catching up with her after so long. The place was gorgeous, and I did a couple of crazy things - one of which was to swim in my evening gown with her sister-in-law. I love these carefree people, love the liberal lifestyles.

Just came back from Ko Samui,  another beach resort trip in which I stayed in a gorgeous seafront villa, visited a bar with ice sculptures, feasted on delicious seafood and simply relaxed. I am beginning to understand why is it that the Westerners love the beach so much - swimming in the lukewarm seawaters and being bobbed by the waves, feeling the sun kissing the skin, walking on the soft sands and sitting under the umbrellas letting seabreezes caress our skin dry....While sipping a cold drink and reading a good book... How tranquil and free.

Back to reality and work and doing homely stuff - business preparation, groceries shopping, catching up with friends next week, reading,  and Yoga. I believe I gained weight, much to my chagrin. Two close girlfriends will be holding their baby showers.

For those who wondered why I made the decision I did..... Especially those who may have viewed my decision with resentment or think me foolish, oh well, let me assure you that it was not an easy decision to make. If everything was as simple as one thinks, then the world would not be so whacky, believe me. Many things are just purely surface, but how many of us will show the world what is private? We have both made sacrifices, and tried.... Yes the nuptial was just a step away, and there is no saying I would never regret it ever (who knows what the future holds?), but if everything had been perfect, wouldnt the deal have been sealed a long time ago? 

Sigh. If only we could just live our lives like a vacation - where there is no fixed routine everyday, where one has no worries or stress and just need to find food, activities to do, and look out for star-filled skies... Who does not yearn for that, pray tell? 

That said, I am trying not to get excited hearing all the Christmas music and seeing all the Christmas decorations and gift sets on display in malls.... It is my favoritest time of the year... always.... 

See you next month, mon cheries...  Kisses...

Oktober Fast...

Dear Diary,

As the title suggests literally, it is October and soon, 2013 would have passed by without stopping for no one.

Physically, this is a tiring month as there were quite a few dinners with friends I have not met for sometime - food, drinks, and fun. Museum visit upcoming to see an Egyptian exhibition, and an upcoming trip next week to a lovely island resort. Sun, seas, sand and the most beautiful bride in the world aka my bestie.

Then there is finalizing of proposals for second round of presentation with the venture capitalists or put it simply, potential investors. For the other online business with *Pris, I will have to get the orders in by next week before my trip. Re-started on my writing projects again too, since time allows. Perhaps I will check out driving lessons, French and piano lessons soon too.

Which reminds me I have yet to shop for things I need for the trip - gifts for the bestie, lots of skincare products that are finishing / running out, and even my dress for the upcoming beach wedding. Strangely, clothes do not pique my interest as of now, when I used to abide by the "buy what I see" theory.

I have not even attended the Oktoberfest this year, or the Shakespearean play or the F1 car racing or caught the new movie starring Sandra Bullock; am not even sure if Halloween will see me out this year. Though, I already have at least 5 dinners on hand that I need to organize once November arrives.

Work has been extremely busy too, with final quarter closing in, and targets to achieve. Then I am now in the committee planning for the company's overseas retreat. I prefer busy-ness, as I always knew and say... one feels more satisfied after a busy day.

Emotionally, this is an exhaustive month as well. There have been lots of uncertainties, drama and considerations. I need to take things easy... but in this game, sadly - one person's dream becomes another's nightmare.

Spiritually, I have started to set aside a little more for meditation, but other than that, the other aspects see no progress.

That said, I need to go grab some fruits before work re-commences, and I cannot wait for the spa / massage session soon...

In the meantime, stay tuned, kisses all.

Sleepless in September

Dear Diary,

The autumn winds are not getting any cooler, but time still stops for no one.

My own emotions are in a turmoil right now as I am writing this entry - what have I done exactly? After weighing the options and alternatives, are the scales tipped? What are the opportunity costs involved? Is it really a smart choice to close the door on comfort ensconce, stability and being valued more, to step out into unchartered waters, unknown, and unwarranted?

I have always been very rational, which is why friends and even acquaintances I barely know like to come to me for advice or as a sounding board. I usually think along the factual lines rather than let emotions rule. But when you are tossed into the sail, though, it is a different feeling - I feel like I am trying to swim against the tides, despite warnings. I don't know if I may make it to shore, or eventually submerge underwater in my pursuit.

Anyway, for this month, there has been a short beach resort trip that boosted white sandy beaches, provided delectable and fresh seafood meals, relaxing Swedish massages and lovely chilling out places. For the first time, I attempted my hand at roulette and also tried jet-skiing..

There have also been the usual dinners with friends and shopping and all. I am supposed to visit a couple of museums this month but just have not had the energy to arranging it yet.

The businesses have also been delayed. There had been a call for the second round of presentation to one of the venture capitalists but I had to go overseas during the same period so I shall have to wait till month end or October to do it. For the other business, my business partner and I should be ready to launch by October.

For September itself as well, there was the Autumn Solstice, where in the past we would celebrate by playing with candles and firecrackers, carrying lanterns and enjoying tasty moon-cakes (a kind of pastry with either baked or snow skin, filled with different-flavored paste) while admiring the beautiful full Moon.

In October, there will be another beach resort trip for my best friend's wedding. There was supposed to be another event happening during the trip that would involve me (just as I have guessed), but now I am not so sure. It does not matter how I feel, I guess. The current headache is over what to wear - I have yet to shop for the right dress.

Right now, I am headed out for dinner with a girlfriend. Stay tuned, darlings. Ending this entry off with kisses and smooches, as always.

Focused August

Dear Diary,

It is only 4 months away from the end of 2013. It appears that the wings of time have grown stronger, larger and faster... I wish for a moment that I could stop time, somewhat, somehow...

Lately, I have moved away from my brunch craze to high-tea craze. So, attended a handful within the short span of a month, at 4-5 star hotels with various girlfriends who share the same affinity. So relaxing, to chill out at nice ambience and catch up over beautiful, tasty pastries.

I have decided to commit more efforts into the new job, since the rewards are good. So work will be busy and more varied; but I love busy-ness. Of course I love my leisure as well, which is why dinners, drinks and high teas are in the schedule with friends. But other than having fun and enjoying myself, I need to keep myself busy in more meaningful and constructive ways too.



Hence, what have I been to lately? Working on my 2nd / 3rd book? Nope, these have been put on hold temporarily.

I have been working on two business projects. The first one is an online business, and I will be doing it with a partner who is one of the besties for decades. Have finished the research, suppliers sourcing, products sourcing, negotiations and finalized the business plan between the two of us. After a couple of meetings, we are ready to launch and get in business finally. I am so excited. The entire process of thinking up of a suitable name (sounds easy, but trust me, it really is not), deciding and agreeing on products to launch, looking for best price and competitors, liaising with suppliers halfway across the globe, seeking platforms to embark on for the business, and of course seeking advice from other friends already in business - is tedious but definitely rewarding.



Did not want any partners initially, because knowing my own personality and temper, am very afraid that working together may turn the relationships sour. But oh well, *Pris has known me, battled with me since young, and I know her. We are both obstinate, direct and very practical people, so I reckon that with all the rules set in  black and white, all should be fine.

The second business plan will also be mainly online for now (with long term goals for a physical outlet) and is related in a field I always had an interest in. Did a long business proposal on it, and presented to a couple of potential venture capitalists. Now at the fine-tuning stage based on their advice / guidance / requirements. Have offers from my own friends to invest into this humble business, but I had to decline. For the same reasons of not wanting partners - don't want relationships to turn sour, or for any other factors to affect my business operations; and also, I cannot guarantee breakeven or turnover at this point in time as the project is very novel, very fresh and coming up with a ballpark figure is not practical. So I need investors who will work with me on a very strictly business reason.

I have more research and trial-and-errors to do for the second business plan, but it will keep me busy enough for now.



Am very fortunate to have many friends whom I can turn to for advice and guidance and hand-holding as these two will be my very first business ventures. Either that I have made the right friends or I am blessed. Will not forget them of course, when businesses flourish.

A favour for a friend has made me take a step back to re-establish contacts with friends in the media / journalism sector. Good to touch base with them again, and to know that when I need to send my own press releases out, I know who are the ones I can connect with directly. To boast a little, I am glad I have all these network contacts in place; some friends, some acquaintances. And that I am thick-skinned / arrogant enough to forge deeper bond beyond the original tier of acquaintanceship / friendship.

Other fronts, an addition has slowly become an addiction... and it is getting perilously close to danger. But should be manageable, by my standards.

No other updates at this point in time. Stay tuned.

Kisses and roses.
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Duly July

Dear Diary,

we have safely embarked upon the later part of 2013, so where does that leave us?

I don't know about you, but for me it has been a new start. I left the place where I had to go to bed nightly scared of waking up because of the thought of stepping into... that environment. I left the place where I had younger men who had seen lesser of the world than I did, told me what I should say and should not say in the office. I left the place where I could not perform even though I had always been a performer.




Here I have a new start, am back to the old trade (though not able to do the same things I used to), income, total carte blanche, and more time to myself.

Thus why I am looking very seriously into my business plans now - been intending to do them for awhile now, but never started on a massive scale. Now I am meeting up entrepreneur friends to seek more advice, and meeting actual potential suppliers to negotiate the possibilities of working together.

I need to work very hard very soon again.



Though not forgetting the dear friends and lovely high-teas, dinners, some painting, and drinks indulgences. I am a very lifestyle kind of person, really I am. These make me happy, oh so. Last week I managed to dine at most of the places I had been meaning to for a while. Planning a couple of trips overseas to meet suppliers as well, but for now I need to draft a business proposal for my massive project.  I am also working on the third book now.

Well, who says that someone who has failed once cannot stand up again? I had my stage, the shining stage. I lost it rather suddenly, and with it I lost my confidence. But who's to say that I cannot stand up and stand tall again, perhaps even more so? Everyone tells me I was born to succeed, and that is why I cannot sit back and do nothing. I am actually excited about these business ideas.

Still addicted to my Russian and French songs, but that is about it. The deeper aspects of my thoughts, shall be revealed shortly.  Oh, may be attending a charity dinner organized by my political preference group as well.

More to come, so stay with me, sweethearts. Loads of kisses.

Mid-year Analysis

Dear Diary,

Half the year has managed to squeeze by - not unnoticed, but still, I am amazed at the speed with which it travels... Does it really need to match lightning?

 A couple of planned trips may have to be forgone, for now, due to some changes. Ahhh, pity, how I miss travelling.

But I am happy - i never used to think happiness was possible. Always used to think that contentment would suffice, but then I realize that I could go beyond it. I don't need a lot to be in a happy state - beautiful things make me happy ( so does shopping, this means!). Chilling out at new restaurants / cafes / lounges make me happy. Catching up with old friends and meeting new friends make me happy. Reading a good book, watching a good play or movie, taking a vacation, trying out a new activity and partying make me happy as well.  Doing something meaningful like charity work or helping someone in need makes me happy, too. The catch is, there should be an assortment of the abovementioned events in my weekly planner to make me truly satisfied. 



I love new experiences. Sports, painting a canvass, visiting a museum, dressing up for an overpriced dinner, playing tour guide to foreign friends, playing a musical instrument - I am up for anything,  even if it means I may only get to try it once In my lifetime. Why grow old without getting to try something new or interesting? I am not super wealthy - and lately Mommy Dearest just loves reminding me of that windfall I was entitled to, if not for my blind faith - but one has to manage their own resources to make room for therapies ( spa, retail, adrenalin, binge, culture...)

There is a song that I can relate to, by Charlene. Yes, I have never been to me.  Call it masks, facades, versatility...mirrors tell lies. i search my soul and often, puzzle over who / what I truly am. My favorite quote by Shakespeare goes "All the world's a stage, the men and women merely actors" ...  Your Body is a temple - worship it well, and it will give you whatever you want, do whatever you ask, bring you wherever you wish to head to...



My dreams at night are starting to come true again... And this fascinates me. A chance encounter with someone whom I thought I would never see again, has thus confirmed it. 
Lastly, I have gotten rid of the dilemma and came to a final decision. The seekers just keep coming, each one bearing a better ....reward. Honestly, I am flattered, and as such I thank whichever Entity that hath blessed... More to come in the next update, promise me that you'd stay tuned...

smooches.

May-fare Bitches

Dear Diary,  

So someone had torn off almost half of 2013, leaving behind more memories and drawing us closer to Summer's warmth. Like the good Mayfair Witches, this month has been filled with happiness, sadness, disappointments, elation, passion and a myriad of other events...one of the most turmoil I have underwent recently.

Many of my good friends are travelling this month - USA, Maldives, Asia, etc... I wish I were one of them..like last year, it had been fun. It feels like Summer in the other half of the world- where everyone escapes to a cooler region, away from Summer's blazing touch. And I am left behind, looking through their photo uploads and casting reminisces upon my own recollections of those places that I have visited... I love travelling - who doesn't? It is not just about relaxing, having fun, not just about shopping, sight-seeing and good food! It is really about learning to infiltrate into the culture and lifestyle and history of a certain country, experiencing lives as the natives, and understanding that country better. It is about discovering exotic new sights and venues, and making new friends in a new city, journalling down the details of the journeys... somewhat... romantic, no?




There have been golf sessions, and baking session - the latter of which is a revival of one of my interests of earlier days - muffins, cookies, pizzas etc, only this time round, we'd done the massive cake baking itself. With all these ready-prepared cake mix packages though, nothing is too much of a challenge. More convenient, less failure rate, yes, but it takes the fun of root of baking. Of course, I believe, the taste and texture are compromised, as well.

There have been lunches with family, tea and drinks with friends, and an upcoming steak dinner party complete with wine and good company. Have I mentioned I love food? No, the average Joe who sees me now would think I am a Vegan or anorexic, that I am, too. But I do love the chewy texture of red meats, the succulent juiciness of seafood, the sweetness of almost all pastries, and the new experience of trying new, exotic dishes. These are indulgences I have to have, to feel alive. Though, in situations when I could only choose one meal or day or one dish a meal, it would be the veggie / fruit I go for - my body needs the Vitamins and fiber. Health comes before my wandering appetite.




This month, two of my best friends (yes, I am one of those blessed ones who have a score of besties who have been through thick and thin with me) are getting married. One of them is halfway across the world, which, regrettably, I am unable to attend - I will be there for her wedding ceremony in August though. The other one is tonight - which, shortly, I shall be dressing up and heading out for catching up with good friends before we head over to the wedding dinner together.

I love dressing up to go out - to go special places, to go nice dinners, to go for formal socializing. I think it is exciting, plowing through the rows of gowns and dresses, getting the makeup right, looking good and confident at beautiful, elegant places. Think, candlelights, mirrors, lovely carpeted floors and gigantic chandeliers. Views are a plus, but all is good.

That said, it is time for a good Lavender shower before I paint my face and don the pearls and head out ....
In the meantime, smooches for you all, dearies. Have a good month my darlings - next month, there will be something exciting, I promise. I may want to rid the misery and masks once and for all. Au revoir.
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month of the Diamonds - April

Dear Diary

The first quarter of 2013 has flown by on unseen wings.. and here I am, penning another entry (not with quill on parchment, unfortunately). 

It's funny, sometimes I sound so much like a man in the way I pen my words, I ought to be part of the Bronte Sisters. Was chatting with a new friend the other day and he was asking about my poetry... I said to him, like arts, poetry is how one chooses to interpret it. A male may see a piece of artwork as sensual whereas a female may interpret it was being sensational. Same goes for poetry - there is no definite meaning to it, like life, like music. He also told me that I could do cryptic very well. I like the sound of that.

The starting of this month had passed by pretty much in a daze - drinks, drinks and drinks, unintentionally planned so. Quality bonding with new and old friends for whom I am blessed to have in my life. What wish does this Aries has this month? Shall I sum it up into simply "greeneries, sceneries, wineries and fineries"?



When I was young, I used to yearn to be able to own lovely things, go on trips, dine at elegant restaurants, dress up stylishly and meet powerful / semi-important people. I guess to a certain extent, I had a taste of it... some of these still remain in my blood and memories... but where does this get me? Where would more quality wine or a license + ready-waiting vintage sports car get me? The departure of someone dear to me was like a wake-up call ringing so true, a lesson learned that would remain my eternal wound. He has taught me the gift of learning to cherish the people around me, people who have formed a part of my life whether by choice or not... and he has taught me this lesson with his own life.  I have never known regret until I have lost him... but since I never had the chance to cherish him, I shall have to do it with all the precious family, kin and friends. Love you, Dd.

I miss the old team so much as well.... the meaningful discussions, the high of achievements, the afternoon teas, the wonderful managers and the guys I had so much fun with day and night; striving together to reach our goals together. It was more than just a loss of career; it was like a loss of identity, all of a sudden, surreal, but I will find my way out. It is wonderful to know that we are still friends and I can still count on you guys.

The current ones are wonderful as well, I guess I just need to rise from the pile of ashes and be the phoenix again... 

Tried to file my income tax returns but the SingPass is forgotten again. What's this, the tenth time? Damn. Been eating so little these days I would not be surprised if I'm being mistaken for a Vegan or worse, anorexic. But it just isnt easy to maintain being svelte, it takes a good diet, exercise and less sitting around, really.

Thanks for patronizing, dearhearts. I'll see you in May. Smooches.
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Marching by 2013

Dear Diary,

So, I have completed Step One of my resolution  - of simply happening to things instead of letting them happen to me, ever again. It will not be an easy feat, but the mind, flesh and soul have to work very closely together hand-in-hand.

While I am thankful for all that have gone my way so far, the road ahead will still be unpredictable. I am not able to prepare for everything, but changing the way I see, and handle things, help a lot.

There has been some extravagant splurges this month, so it has put my shopping to a halt for now, while I focus on the new career on hand. There are bags (and a list of other things I intend to get soon), and the new Blackberry z10 in WHITE.



Training has been intensive so far, but I guess at least I am going into an industry for which I have always been keen in. While the last industry had been comfortable, a taint has prevented the possibility of reaching 
professional status, hence I aborted the safe haven and ventured out. Farewell had been difficult, everyone there had been angels, but I guess angels'  wings do have to spread and take off, eventually...

And the previous industry before last, will no longer be an available option for me ever again now, regrettably.

Well, new changes, new mindset, and new status soon. I am contemplating changing the name again, as I tire of this current one, and it had brought me a fair bit of trouble. But perhaps, I shall wait till the tides are over, then I will change the name again - the third and (hopefully, final) one that I have thought of, a long time ago.

Free time? Spent with the family, playing nurse this month, meeting the friends, and helping out with mon beau's and the bro's businesses. Slowly falling in love with Lana Del Rey's songs and voice day by day.

The extreme exhaustion I had been feeling previously had worn off, as did the tendency to feel cold very easily.
Call it blessings, or doing things my way, I can already begin the feel the changes slowly swallowing me up.
May all those I love be blessed, too.

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Fabulous February 2013

Dear Diary

welcome into the arms of 2013... the year with no resolutions for me as yet... It is still surreal that we have stepped away from another year and begun a fresh 365 days.

Shadows of the past year are still following me around, sometimes playing a little hide-and-seek... I don't mind. What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger. I have never really believed it to be true until now.

January has been rather uneventful for me besides some dinner and drinks sessions here and there... basically it has been work, side-line, shopping, home, read / TV and sleep.

I need to start writing again. It defines me, it is something that forms a part of me, un-detachable, and it is who I am. I have the contents all in my head, but to compose them into words is a challenge. 








Other than that, I went for a short trip during the Spring Equinox period. There were some visitations to local temples and palaces, but as this is my third time there, we did more of shopping, massage and eating. 

Then there was St. Valentine's Day with mon beau.





I am back in yoga practice. Need to balance the mind, body and soul.

And I have decided that instead of letting things happen to me, I should start going out there and happen to things. 

There is death everywhere lately - natural catastrophes, illnesses and old age, shootings, accidents etc. It is a part of life, indeed, but it still doesnt erase the initial fresh pain of losing someone. My paternal relations were commenting the other day at an aunt's wake that we should stop gathering at dark events as such, and someone should organize joyous gatherings - but who? With the older generation bidding their farewell one by one, the onus lie on us to focus on staying in touch, if not, we would not even know who our kin are in future. Rest in peace and stay remembered.

The next month's entry will entice more. Till then.
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January 2013

Dear Diary

welcome into the arms of 2013... the year with no resolutions for me as yet... It is still surreal that we have stepped away from another year and begun a fresh 365 days.

Shadows of the past year are still following me around, sometimes playing a little hide-and-seek... I don't mind. What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger. I have never really believed it to be true until now.

January has been rather uneventful for me besides some dinner and drinks sessions here and there... basically it has been work, side-line, shopping, home, read / TV and sleep.

I need to start writing again. It defines me, it is something that forms a part of me, un-detachable, and it is who I am. I have the contents all in my head, but to compose them into words is a challenge. 

Other than that, I am preparing for an upcoming trip during the Spring Equinox period. Then there are 3 more dinners to look forward to.

I am back in yoga practice.

And I have decided that instead of letting things happen to me, I should start going out there and happen to things. 

The next month's entry will entice more. Till then.