Dear Diary
time has moved on again, without looking back to see if I was keeping pace faithfully. I could not complain. January has been a month of fun, relaxation and self-improvement. It took a toll on my work. Especially with the writing I have been back on track for. Would I still care so much if 2012 were really the End?
I have been working on building a little more Religions faith. I have a research essay for it, which I shall give myself a long deadline, a la thesis. I have been working on my novel again. Reading through it again, I am once more submerged in the world I have created. I want to immerse myself in it every second of the day - it is like an addiction. Even when I am in the office, my mind and heart belong to my story. I want to keep writing it, keep working on the characters' actions and conversations. I want to be with them; be part of them.
I know I need to pull out of this before it eats me up.
It is one of those times I want to just hide away in some lovely countryside or deserted island and do nothing but escape into my own fantasy world, writing, creating. Ahhh... the beauty of escapism.
I have also been doing some tidying and reorganizing of my room. There was so much stuff I ruthlessly threw away to make space for new purchases. There were a lot of keepsakes and memoirs that I could not bear to discard, though. I may be heartless most of the times, but the amount of keepsakes I have kept thus far, looking back at the memories they evoke - has made me realize the sentimental side of me as well. Some handwritten letters, some awards won all the way from middle school, some gift tokens. I feel like throwing away some of these means throwing a part of myself away.
I have close to a hundred books - non-fiction and novels. I have close to one hundred and fifty outfits and growing - mostly dresses. There are so many pieces of clothings I do not even recall owning. I am sure I will wear some of them again. The rest will all go to a charity organization. Which reminds me, too, that I have not been working on my fashion portfolio.
If only time were a standstill...
Anyway, heaven has been weeping alot lately, sending its precious tears to earth in torrents. I have bathed in it. Perhaps you should give it a try too.
Happy Imbolc / Candlemas / St. Brigit's Day. It is a day when blessings are cast and candles are lit.
I have included some rather interesting quotes I have posted .... and I thnk they are rather brilliant and poetic. I shall end my entry here with passion. Kisses to you, eyes on my blog!
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