January 2011, Hail

Dear Diary

henceforth marks the very first entry for 2011.   I do not know how it would pan out, but I hope that all would be better than 2010.

Through various religions masters - or practitioners - I have learned much about the direct or indirect thoughtforms and actions that affect our lives in certain manners. I hope to put my newfound knowledge to good use and seeing more positive returns.

The festive mood needs to pass. I need to start working - and hard. The trophy I just received during the recent incentive trip might be a good motivator to reach higher mountains. Yes, I just returned from overseas; still dazed by the beauty and grandeurs of the place, and still feeling the cold against my skin..... I wish I could have a longer vacation.

5 dresses to kick start the New Year - two of which are gifts.


black Mango knit dress with half-sleeves. Gift by *Charliez. My new traveling dress.
 
  pink and gray tube dress

  black ruffled dress

  psychedelic patterned dress

black and coral red dress that looks like a vested suit

black ruffled mock-bandaged Chiffon dress with silver studs

red deep-v neck short dress with roles of black sequined studs
 
 

I am going to publish a mini "About Me" section and reviewing it next year to see if anything differs.

Name: E
Gender: female
Star sign: Aries
Religion: Paganism
Occupation: Financial Services
Educational background: Mass Comm. Psychology. Law.
Hobbies: reading, writing, singing, yoga, bowling, movies, shopping, chilling out etc
Favorite authors: depending on genre. Usually true crimes, religions, mysteries and poetry. And Oscar Wilde
Favorite singers: depending on genre again. New Age - Enya, Sarah Brightman, Secret Garden, Vangelis, ERA and Gregorian.  Others - Alanis Morisette, Def Leppard, Scorpions, Marc Anthony etc
Favorite actors: Paul Bettany. Marilyn Monroe.
Favorite food: French, Italian, desserts and my mother's cooking
Favorite Fruits: berries and peaches
Favorite drinks: red wine, gin tonic, daiquiri, chocolate
Favorite animals: polar bears, dolphins and cats
Favorite color: Black and silver
Favorite flower: black or champagne roses. Tulips.
If there was one person you could connect with totally? Marilyn Monroe. Or Oscar Wilde.
If there was one thing you could do everyday and still love it? Escapism. Or arts.
Things you cannot stand? People who Do not keep promises. Unhygienic people. Unjustice. Cruelty to animals.
You believe that... everyone has 2 sides to them. Learn to see both. Also, Karma exists.
Regrets? Many.
Personality? versatile; multi-faceted
and the list goes on...

FInal Entry for 2010 (belated)

Dear Diary

It is time for one of those long, sensational and sentimental final entries of the year. Only this came three days late.

It is also time to re-read the journal entries made for the year, burn the calendars and memories if 2010 was bad, or offer thanks if 2010 had been a blessing. The usual boring script goes..."Yes, I think 2010 was all right, with its ups and downs. I hope 2011 would be a better year, though."



 


I would like to do it just a little differently, this year. Looking back, 2010 indeed had its peaks and troughs for me, but I have also experienced some miracles by my beloved Deities, whom I will continue to invite to bless my life in 2011. There were victories on the job, new friends gained, deeper pockets dug, spiritual growth, a visit from my best pal in the world Feith, and a little flirtation with testing the limits of my relationship. I have grown calmer, and I would think , alot kinder - in the face of adversaries. Oh, my lucky foes.









There was little travelling done. Except for those trips taken nearby my current city - usually 3 days, 2 nights' affairs. There will be more trips come 2011, but most of the "where" still remains an enigma. For the most part of 2010, I have been rather "touristy" in my own land, visiting places of attraction - well, on a brighter note there were indeed two newly established, visit-worthy locations that were born in 2010 itself.  I have also stumbled upon 2 products - Lancome's Genefique (youth activator) and SKIN DOCTORs' antarctilyne plump - which managed to improve my skin much effectively than my pricey (think, ten times the price of the above 2 products mentioned) beauty parlor treatment packages. And also, the wonderful discovery of some mineral Make-up primer (brand: Bellapierre) that gives my skin the smooth after-moisturizer feel texture that I have always wanted. Ok, blessings, blessings.

The downside of 2010?

I could have handled some cases better - hence I regard them as expensive lessons learnt. I did not have time to meet up with many beloved friends as I would have wanted to. With deeper pockets came larger expenses and operating costs. My health was not as stellar as it has always been - my eyes, the flu, even a case of breathlessness while in the car (and this was cause for concern). I also gained weight. And there is that massive mess that I have yet to shake off.

Overall, though, I would think the scales were tipped in my favor.







HATRED. This is a part of me I am slowly dissolving, learning to give more love to everyone around me. There were so much I hated and begrudged, and with hatred came the great desire to inflict great harm. Plotting revenge was, for a period of unhealthy years, a favorite game of mine to play, to watch the enemy suffer, to cause them pain and bask in that moment of glory.  It was even easy, to instantly come up with plots should my path be crossed unpleasantly.

At the end of it all what I got was fifteen minutes of fame and tainting my own aura with darkness. I no longer want that. I have learned to reserve my dark talent for the deadlier foes - which, by walking the path of love, I seemed to encounter lesser and lesser of such dark foes. I am tired, perhaps, of the constant search to inflict harm.

2010 alone has opened my eyes enough, to show me that the best form of victory comes from having the support of those who love you, during times you are put on trials. The enemy will burn on his/her own when they realize they fail to inflict harm upon you within your safety net of love and support. And I feel happier, for certain.







ENVY. If there was one thing I never succeeded in doing, it was to count my blessings. I was constantly oblivious to what I had, and the need to want more did at times, embitter me. I was not blind to the positive points in me and my life, but I refused to acknowledge them most of the times. I wanted what everyone else had - the perfect lover, the mounts of riches, the fanciful townhouse, the life of bling-blings.

But reality caught up with me one day and made me understand that I need to stop this state of envy. I need to stop hurting over things out of my reach, and start counting my blessings; cherishing what I have and enhancing them to the state I deem perfect. Wow. Sometimes I sound really philosophical.







My resolution for 2011? More spiritual growth and career advancement. I want to look and feel better than I have for years. I want to spend more time with my friends and family. Travel more, too (haha). I need to spend time to work on my writings if not they would never get published by the time people stop reading hard copies. Perhaps, go back for yoga classes and the gym.

So, hereby I bid you farewell, good 2010.

And with arms wide open, I welcome 2011 into my bosom - come hither, thee, with all thy riches, robust health and blessings of riches and beauty - May 2011 be a memorable one for all!